after further review

I've had some time to think about this proposed letter. The following points have been raised.

1) Tell me again, why does John need to be made aware of this?
It's about dissension in the ranks. It's like if the kids are fighting the parents need to know; or employees of a company, the boss needs to know so whatever problem there is can be straightened out. However it's labeled, it still makes me queasy to think of having John's near-undivided attention focused on me.

2) This wasn't my idea.
As far as I know, Dave and Lotis consider the matter pretty much closed and behind us. In the beginning I was the one who thought I hadn't gotten a fair chance to fully explain, but not so much now. Doc is the one who says the solution of 'making space' was a mishandle of the situation that favored the Messengers ministry over my own needs. I was just too timid to stick up for myself. I see his point, but if it were up to me I would cut my losses and move on, even if moving on is code for 'forgetting this whole embarrassment ever happened'. And it's for this exact reason I will defer to his judgement and, with a couple provisions, tell him to send the letters. The provisions being a)I want to know (generally) what he's going to say in the letters before he sends them, b)he needs to answer the John question, the one I asked above, and c)tell Dave and the rest of them if they agree there should be a meeting, to talk to Doc and not call me with questions.

3) Wouldn't that just steam Lotis's clams.
The main reason she wanted to make space, to have me take time away from Messengers, was because (I'm paraphrasing here)"if there was any hinting of inappropriateness, it could be harmful to the ministry." She was afraid the 'wrong' people would find out that her precious ministry could be compromised and there'd be some kind of Formal Inquiry. That right there tickles my vindictive nature, almost enough for me to give Doc the green light, no questions asked.

Almost.