Poetry

I've been immersed in writing poetry lately, often neglecting my personal journals. I wanted to post some here but all I have so far are a couple dinky limericks and one that's not finished. This latter seems to have taken on a mind of its own and keeps wanting to get longer. It's actually pretty good, but like I said, it's not done.

So here's one of the dinks, something I spat out in a single, hour-long college English class:

I went to the fridge for a snack

And I thought I'd be coming right back

But the leftovers tried

To pull me inside

And I found myself under attack

The students in class, as well as anyone I've read it to, thought it was witty. So imagine what I could do if I really applied myself.

Psalm 40:2

For the past months I have been struggling through an extreme state of despair and depression. Only in the past week has it begun lifting. I have my own self to blame (Ps 107:10-12), but I believe I am only put through difficulty for my good (Heb 12:6-7). It's taught me patience, not only with myself and other people, but also with God (Ps 37:7a).

Not to say I don't still get frustrated, I tend to have a short fuse, but I find I'm able to deal with it in a more constructive way. I've never been one to put holes in walls, but there was this in March of '07 after the 'Dave Fiasco'. I have since added one for Doc, but even that was some time ago and all that remains are scars that no one asks about.

On a lighter note, many thank-you's to Doc for not giving up on me, exponentially more to God for that same reason. Having emerged on the other side, I can more clearly see the dark hole I was in. Looking back, remembering how I felt in there, I have a deep sense of relief and gratitude that God did not abandon me to my despair, though it felt very much like that at the time. Now I have a better perspective of how things really are instead of bemoaning how I think they should be.

I know I'm nowhere near out of the woods yet (it's called life), but at least I'm finally, sincerely doing better.

•All references are ESV

Bad News

Morgan Freeman (actor) was recently in a semi-serious car accident in which his car went off the road and flipped a couple times. Though he broke his shoulder, arm and ribs, the EMTs said he was conscious and communicative.

Bernie Mac (comedian and actor) died Sat from complications from tuberculosis. He suffered from Sarcoidosis of the lungs, medication for which can lower a person's immune system.

Isaac Hayes (musician) died Sun. The family physician listed the cause of death as a stroke.