feeling....ucky

The day after I knew that I'd be flying overseas for sure and soon, I started not feeling well. Nausea, lethargy, possible fever(?). Hopefully it's just a bug and not my body's subconscious protestations about my upcoming risky endeavor.

I'm thinking towards the latter, something like the butterflies I got before my first time on the road with the Messengers, but worse because it'll be just me and it's an ocean away instead of across the border. Also, I don't do well with keeping secrets from those I wish knew. But I'm a peacekeeper by nature with a weak stomach for emotional turmoil, and them knowing my plans would trigger all the questions (especially from my overprotective mother) with answers that won't convince them.

So I'm hoping it's a bug and not that, or the onset of the flu.