I have decided that in order to make any substantial progress in sessions with Doc (and get on with my life) I need to quit skirting my issues and be brutally honest, mainly with myself. This also means not giving vague answers when Doc asks me a question or saying "I don't know" when I do know.
With this in mind, tomorrow's session should make for an interesting and nerve-wracking ordeal. I'm going to explain to Doc as best I can the conclusions I've come to over the past two weeks and then tell him up front, "Ask me a question and I'll answer to the best of my verbal ability." That way if I backslide and he senses I'm fudging on the truth he can call me on it. I've gotten away with downright lying to Doc before probably because he didn't feel he could push me on the matter without causing me to stop talking altogether. Giving him that permission is a very scary thing for me. But I trust him finally, not just professionally but personally. I have no delusions that it'll be easy (by no means), but as I'm being honest with myself I know it has to be done.
Wish me luck.
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