New Year's Eve/New Year's Day

I last posted on the 29th of Dec. Again, it feels like longer. My dad got back around midnight last night, I was with my mom and younger brother at our church's new year's eve service, a communion service.

Anywho....

After service Lotis came over and said that a few of the Messengers were going over to one particular lady's house (her name is Grace) because it was her (Grace's) birthday. So besides my mom, myself, my younger brother and Lotis, there were another four Messengers there, plus Grace's husband. It was a combination birthday, New Year's Eve, and Anniversary (Lotis and her husband) celebration. We had ham, veggies and onion dip, stuffed mushrooms, chips and nacho cheese dip, quesadillas, and strawberry punch, with a tiramisu cake for dessert. And no, I didn't disappear into a corner afterwards. It's not that I don't know how to be sociable, I just choose not to be because I suck at it. That old maxim about children being seen and not heard, in some way or other that was imprinted on me during my formative years and until now I have perfected its practice with the present result of excluding others from myself and myself from others.

So as the group was drifting out the door in ones and twos (at around three o'clock on the morning of the 1st), I came upon the knowledge that there is a Messengers prayer meeting scheduled for 7 pm on the 5th over at Dave's house. I briefly entertained the notion of crashing with no prior notice, but that would be completely detrimental to any progress I have made with Dave and Renee thus far. So tomorrow I will call Lotis (since it is a Messengers' meeting) and ask if I'm allowed to come or if she thinks I should continue to keep my distance. I will suggest she confer with Dave and Renee before she makes a decision either positive or negative. Hopefully they will be ok with me coming since it will be the whole group, though they may have a problem with me being in their home.