in exile

I have been banished from Dave's. I have been banished from Messengers. This banishment has an indefinite time span, "until summer, and then we'll see" is what they said. Somehow that is worse than an irreversible decision, as slivers of hope seem to be the bane of my existence lately. So anything within the boundaries of Dave and Messengers is prohibited, but I must remember that there are other places I can go. I'm not as confined as I would have myself believe. The reason I have trouble seeing other possibilities is because Messengers was a large chunk of my social exposure, a sure go-to when I wanted to be around other people without actually having to be sociable. Which, when I think about it, is a big part of why I'm in this mess.