quandry

In 'objective thinking, part3' I relayed about two bus passes that Renee sent me. Now I'm wondering if I should reply. Should I write her a thank you/apology? Or should I not make any contact and again risk being seen as a cold person? Every time I think about the potential for continued harm to this relationship I get queasy. If I keep pushing they'll likely cut off contact completely and forever, and I've already proven that I have a problem with boundaries, mental and emotional if not physical.

Would Renee see such a note of apology as some attempt to gain brownie points or shorten my 'sentence' as it were? That's exactly what I don't want to happen. I'm beginning to comprehend that it's easier to create a negative opinion of yourself in others than it is to get out from under one. Of course, I've been unwittingly developing this 'rep' for years and only just recently been working to invert it.

-sigh- Doc. Sig. and I will have quite the session next week.